Have I changed?

I am little different when it comes to happiness. I find joy in little things. I look at the stars in the skies, and I smile like a super amazed kids. But at another moment I feel like is there something missing. I don't know why? but deep inside I am not able to be happy. Somehow, some things always drag me down. No, I am not depressed. I think I am in mess. I am girl who likes to be carefree. I act as I don't care. But sometimes I still overthinking, I still spend sleepless nights.

I have always believed that goodness will win at the end. I take great pride in my heart it's innocence and it's purity. Yes, I do make fun of people. I say mean things. I pull their leg. I can get really rude.
But I have always done more then I could when they needed me. But did they care? They felt nothing. And that's why sometimes I give up on being good.

Tonight I want to breathe in peace, in acceptance and in defeat. Because someone told me...

you can never be low
you carry a crown on your head girl
If you will be low you have to bow down your head
And you can't afford to let your crown fall.

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